So I realized sometimes you've gotta do what you gotta do. What are your priorities in life? I think, especially for me, my priorities can easily get screwed up, jumbled, and skewed. I've always known that family is my number one priority. And it's been eating away at me, the fact that I missed my cousin's wedding in October at the start of the year. I wanted to be there more than anything but I couldn't make it out there because of school.
I think it's unfortunate that death takes a priority over life. But sometimes death unites families in ways that life cannot. My cousin's uncle Jack died yesterday (the same cousin whose wedding I missed); and I know I am going to be there for my cousins this weekend. I owe it to the two of them. Of course my uncle (their father) was telling me I shouldn't feel obligated to go, and I don't; I want to go, I want to be there for them, because they are two of the most important people in my life, and I know they would be there for me in a heartbeat. Hell they flew all the way out for my graduation, and even dressed up for my Prom because my date couldn't be there for pictures.
I talked to both of them last night on the phone; it broke my heart, especially talking to Mike. He was drunk, I think, and I'd never heard him sound so hurt before.
I'm going to fly out to Maryland this Thursday; at this point I'd take a bad grade in my classes. Family's more important.
Breakfast: small container of goat milk yogurt (100 cal, 6 g protein), 1/2 scoop of protein powder (9 g), couple almonds (maybe 1/8 c?)
Lunch: big salad with tons of turkey, scoop of bean-corn-pepper mixture, olive oil, vinegar; couple bites of cantaloupe; coffee and cream
Snack: 16 oz cappaccino
Dinner: piece of tofu, BBQ beef brisket, zucchini, broccoli, scoop of pesto, vinegar; couple bites of cantaloupe