Saturday, October 31, 2009

*sigh*

Well an update. I've been in Scotland for the past week. I'm taking a quarter off from school (for various reasons) and my family's in Scotland for a year, so I'm here for a week visiting.

It's been an ... interesting week. Fun, yes, but also tiring, painful, and so very frustrating. I have an 'almost' stress fracture in my foot. In medical terms, it's a stress reaction, which means it's everything leading up to a fracture, but not fractured yet -- irritation, swelling, inflammation, etc. Lucky I stopped doing everything when I did.

This week has been so frustrating -- I'm in Scotland. Therefore I should be able to walk. A lot. And I haven't been able to because of my damn foot. So it's been hard. Not to mention the University of Edinburgh has a freakin FANTASTIC weightroom. And I mean FANTASTIC. 5+ platforms and squat racks, eleiko bumpers, competition bars, and a female competition bar. I have NEVER seen a 15 kg competition bar in a weightroom, not even in the Syracuse Varsity weightroom. It pretty much made me cry every time I walked in there because I couldn't use it. I did my pullups, dips, pressing, some rowing (fantastic room for rowing/crossfit style workouts) etc. I was seriously in love with this place. Lifting aside, this fitness center is amazing -- cardio room, weight machine room, lifting room, climbing wall, "circuit" room (I like to call it the CrossFit room because they have a track and pull up bars etc) ... it's amazing.

I'm frustrated with life. My foot's messed up. I'm not going to the American Open. I'm probably not going to Junior Nationals. I'm definitely not going to Junior Worlds. All my goals for the year, out the door. Am I ever going to get better? (see other post).

That aside, I'm going to start a diet detox. Well more like a 'get back on top if it' period. I haven't really been eating well (or enough) for the past month because of all the stuff that's been going on. Mostly paleo, but I've allowed chocolate to sneak back into my daily food, which isn't terrible in itself, but not a good habit to get into. I also think I'm starting to become allergic to dairy ... so I'm also gonna try to cut out dairy and see how I feel.

So the next month-ish (until Thanksgiving):
*no dairy
*NO chocolate
*at least 3 normal meals -- breakfast, lunch, dinner

See how it goes in a month. Hopefully my foot will be better by then and I can at least start squatting and deadlifting again. *sigh.*

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

What's good?

What is good in my life right now? Like seriously?
The past year has been injury after injury after injury for me. It's wearing on me. Too much.
My back is still messed up.
Last night the person I love most in the world broke my heart.
And now my foot is in a boot; for no reason, I might have a stress fracture.
What else? Seriously? What else?
All I want is to be a good lifter.
To be happy with the person I love. To lift.
Lifting. That's all I want. It feels like my dreams are slowly slipping away. I have not accomplished a single goal this year I had in mind. Slowly slipping away ...

Why? Why can't I just move on? Just be healthy? Just be ok? I want to be good. Why is this all happening?

/end rant. But not really.

Monday, October 19, 2009

No water today, which is good. But I hate the world. My foot is messed up. Great.

Snatch
35/1
35/1
35/1

Clean
45/3
45/3
55/2
60/1
65/1
65/1
65/1
65/1
65/1

FS
50/3
60/3
72.5/3
72.5/3
72.5/3
72.5/3
72.5/3

DL
70/3
80/3
87.5/3
87.5/3
87.5/3

Press
20/5
22.5/10
22.5/10


hypers: 3x12, 16 kg

bent over rows: 3x10, 22.5 kg

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Mother Nature Blows

Well that and the city/location of our gym.





Needless to say my workout sucked today. It was hard to concentrate with the given circumstances. Cleans were sucky, like REALLY sucky, not even worth writing down. FS were ok. Didn't DL bc my back was hurting. Grrr.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Cleans are feeling better. That's good.

Snatch work: 15 lb plates, sets of 3 (these are stuck here)

FS
20/5
20/10
55/10
55/10
55/10

Cleans
45/3
50/2
50/2
50/2
50/2
50/2
50/2

DL
70/3
70/3
70/3

Press
20/10
20/10

hypers: 3x20
pushups: 3x5 (first time I've done these in a LONG time)

Cleans are moving along more than snatches. Think I'm gonna try some light jerks this weekend.